I'm going to make a change, as my life is monotonous, I will post monthly, and here are the notes for July. I said in my previous post that I was thinking of stopping seeing the psychologist, but she was the one who stopped seeing me. She disappeared, and this is the second time this has happened. The reason for the first time was the death of a relative, which the secretary did not communicate to me. I am in the dark. I was not referred to a psychiatrist, and I urgently need mental health professionals.

I discovered that INSS beneficiaries cannot work or they lose their benefits, which was a shock. I was discouraged from taking the ENCCEJA exam for this reason, but I will take the test. Over the last three months, I have been talking to a young woman to whom I disclosed my condition. She is schizophrenic, had changed medications, and after the change, she started hearing voices telling her that everything I said was a lie. Two days later, she tried to humiliate me, calling me a cripple, a shitty wheelchair user, and telling me to get up. It lasted three days and only stopped because I cut off contact, realising that it would not stop.

I watched Divertidamente 2 with my family. It was tiring, but fun. Four days later, we travelled at the invitation of my doctor, who paid for the trip. The trip was very good, but we spent more than we could afford. I say I had fun, but I felt absolutely nothing but pain and the feeling of being a pathetic existence that can't even talk, because I don't have the strength to breathe and speak. I prefer to stay silent, I talk to them in my head.

They fixed the wheelchair battery, but I can no longer use the control, it's too far from my hand. I'll make an appointment with an occupational therapist, I hope it works out.