On the 20th, some things necessary for daily life arrived: medicines, supplements, hygiene items, etc. This is from home care, things are moving quickly. I feel very blessed and ungrateful for feeling neutral. It is a very strange feeling of gratitude, but not feeling excited or happy about the good things that happen to me.

They want to put a feeding tube in me so I can eat properly. There are many benefits, at some point I will get worse to the point where I can't eat and the tube can no longer be inserted. They said so many things that I was convinced, but I am very afraid of it..

My depression has worsened, I am distancing myself from people I don't want to, and I realise this, but I don't feel like maintaining this closeness. I have been feeling like a bad person and that I deserve to be alone. I don't like the idea of ending up being a burden, even though I am never negative and always see the positive side and keep the conversation going. Stopping to think about it, maybe I'm distancing myself from this person because I told them about my condition and not because of depression. This always happens. Based on the State's response, they will probably ask for some changes. It's very likely that everything will be sorted out by January, it's going faster than I imagined. I will be worth 500k annually to the State, they steal so much in this country that I don't feel bad about taking advantage of what I can.