Another year has passed. In 2023, I fought with myself, and in 2024, I achieved many things for my physical and mental well-being. Last Thursday, I began the process of purchasing a bed and renting a cough assist device, and on the same day, my nurse argued with me.

The fight started when I asked her to wipe the mask I use to sleep with a tissue again. She started saying that I find fault with everything, talking over me without letting me say a single word. I waited and asked her to show me a situation where I find fault with what she does, and she mentioned what happened two days earlier: I was unable to arrange the cushions I use to operate the computer, we spent a long time on this, she started to get irritated and arrange them stupidly, which made it take even longer. In the end, she said, ‘You used to be better, I feel like a fool arranging this.’

After the confusion, I asked her for something and she ignored me. I asked her why she wasn't answering me and she said she didn't feel like it. That annoyed me; it's not something you should do.

I need to look at the things I have and stop thinking about the things I want. This year I will take the ENCCEJA, a test to complete my education, and then take a competitive exam that suits me. I took a math test from previous years and when I checked it, I got everything wrong and was feeling stupid, but 15 minutes later I noticed that the answer key was for another subject. Plans to improve my life, despite the apathy.